June 30, 2025
From Past Mistakes to New Beginnings: Terry's Relational Rollercoaster
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In this episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast, Terry shares a candid and emotional journey through his personal experiences of relationship struggles and self-discovery. From moving across states to navigating chaotic relationships, Terry delves into the lessons learned from recognizing red flags and the importance of emotional readiness before jumping into new experiences. Join Terry as he opens up about the ups and downs of his past, offering cautionary tales and wisdom on handling life's unexpected twists and turns. Tune in for an episode filled with raw honesty and invaluable insights.
00:33 - Introduction to the Chronicles
02:42 - The Crazy Journey Begins
04:05 - Old Flames and New Connections
05:17 - The Twist of Control
09:22 - The Bullying Begins
11:30 - A Relationship in Turmoil
13:21 - The Nasty Breakup
15:00 - Confrontation and Chaos
16:31 - Lessons Learned
21:20 - Reflection and Healing
21:30 - Closing Remarks and Next Steps
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Music.
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Welcome to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.
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This podcast was designed to let you know that you aren't the only one that
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took forever to get it together.
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So the rabbit hole that you have stumbled down will hopefully help you understand
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that just when you think it's over, it's only the beginning.
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Just because you was dealt a bad hand doesn't mean you have to keep it.
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Welcome to the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.
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What's going on, you guys? Welcome. I can't even talk.
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Welcome to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast. It is your boy, Terry.
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Man, we're going to get into episode eight here in just a second,
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but I want to catch up to folks that are brand new that have not listened to
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episode one through seven.
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You might want to go through those before you jump into episode eight because
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you'll be confused if you don't. Right.
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So episode seven, we was talking about, you know, I think I ended up,
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I ended the last episode.
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I left, I left Illinois back in, this is in 2014.
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So circa 2014, I went through a lot of stuff back in 2014, man,
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left, you know, I left the woman who I thought I'd spend the rest of my life
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with. And, you know, she's moved, she had moved on and, you know, I was left behind.
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And so I went into my next chapter, which is the career.
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I think, you know, this chapter, this chapter I'm going to talk about tonight
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is kind of one of the craziest chapters of my life I went through.
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And I went through a lot, you know, but the premise of this podcast episode
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tonight, tonight is to make sure that you guys are able to recognize crazy through the door.
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Now, one thing I will say about people, you know, crazy is that everybody that's
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walking the planet, male, female, girl, boy, it doesn't really matter.
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Everybody walks, I believe, walks with a level of crazy, right? Everybody does.
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So there's no shortage of crazy in the world, right?
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But it is the ability to recognize what level of crazy you're willing to take and put up with, right?
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So we're going to go right into episode eight. Now, episode eight,
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I told you guys at the end of episode seven, I got on the plane and I'm going back to North Carolina.
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Now, what happened before all of that happened was I found a old childhood crush
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that I had when I was very, very young, teen or 11, maybe.
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And I met this woman. I'm not going to name her name, but she probably doesn't care if I did or not.
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But she, because she was out there, right? So, you know, I was a kid.
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Let me give you a little bit of the backdrop. I was a kid and my dad used to
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preach at this church every, every fourth Sunday, every month he would go to
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the same church and he was back in my hometown.
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And every Sunday, this young lady and her grandmother and all them,
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they would come to the church.
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And so I developed this crush on her. It was just this amazing crush, but we lost contact.
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And so over the years that I was looking for and things of this nature,
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when I was going through the things with Strawberry, right there at the end,
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I found her on Facebook. And we became friends on Facebook.
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Everything was good. You know, everything was good. So we was talking,
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we would FaceTime, you know, and all that.
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But she was just on another level.
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So we got to the point where we made a decision to get together and make a run for it.
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Because, you know, I had my run with Strawberry, and that was over and done.
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And so I went with this, you know, what do I have to lose?
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Because what I was seeing was failing, and I didn't know what guy had in store. going forward.
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So I leave, you know, I leave Illinois. I leave, I leave the whole thing. And I get on this plane.
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She meets me at the airport. Now let me tell you something about this woman.
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When I get off the plane and I come through baggage, baggage claim to get my suitcase.
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She came, I mean, she came with the guns blazing. You understand?
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I mean, she, she came with the sundress, no, no, no undergarments,
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top, far bottom. She came with the thunder.
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That was really intriguing to me because at that point in my life,
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it's all about the physical.
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We go back to her place and I moved in with her.
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I go back to her place and there was no sign of it. It's like Martin,
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if you guys have ever watched, she was so crazy.
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At that point, she was so crazy when he was saying, there was no sign of her
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being crazy the range, and that is what this was. There was no sign of her being crazy in the range.
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So we get back to the apartment, you know, we do what adults do.
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And after that, it just fell apart. Right. So I go back, you know,
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I'm back home, you know, I don't know what happened with her.
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I don't know what switch was flipped.
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I don't know. But she became this really controlling woman.
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And, you know, like, she would make me do things, because, you know,
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I'm, naturally, I'm a homebody.
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Anybody that knows me, anybody that knows me, no.
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I'm a homebody. I go out every now and then, but I'm not that,
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you know, that go-out type person.
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And so she used to make me go out and do things, go to church.
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I just, you know, I wasn't really into that, you know, because I was still So
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I was still mourning the loss of Strawberry.
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So I really couldn't even get into it. I couldn't even get into it.
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So she tried. I mean, and so for the most part, I complied, you know,
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because I just didn't want to hear a whole bunch of nonsense.
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So, of course, I had to go back and look for a job. I went back to a job that
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I had worked years prior.
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Where you get those jobs that their turnover is crazy and you can go back and
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get a job anytime you want. It was like that.
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And so I went back and I got this job at just a place I used to work.
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So I can't take a name at that place now.
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Connections, I think is what it was. It was a phone company where it was a third party for OnStar.
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And OnStar was early in their infancy. You know, you need to follow up and get
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directions and all that jazz.
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But I went back. Now, a lot of the stuff that I had when I was there previously
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was a child support order and things of this nature that I was going through.
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So when I went back, they had my social security number.
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So, of course, that hit automatic, right? That first check, I was like $400
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short and I'm like, what's going on there?
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And it was like because of a previous child support order. So it was like,
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oh my God, this is going to, you know.
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So I go back to work and I bring home that first paycheck. And it's $400 short.
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And we had to pay, we had to pay a light bill or whatever.
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Well, we ended up going to Carol Wins or something that day or that weekend,
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whatever, before I got paid. So the debt was short.
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So she flipped her lid like, you know, what's going on with you, da-da-da-da-da.
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And, you know, I was just like, man, I'm sorry. I didn't know they were going
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to do that, you know, whatever, whatever.
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But since that moment, she flipped the script all the way.
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Like, you know, if you can't be a man, da-da-da, and all that.
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But what I realized, too, was that she was really judgmental,
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right? She was really judgmental, man.
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Like I told you guys, we went to Carowinds.
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At this time, I was a little bit bigger, right?
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And so we tried to get on one of the rides, and they could not get the safety
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clasp or the safety harness on me because I was a little bit larger. So she picked at me.
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We talking about childhood bully type stuff.
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So after the car accident, after the first paycheck accident,
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It went to, I'm going to bully you now, you know, and she, and she became this bully. And she.
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We used to, you know, of course, but with us living together and being in a
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relationship, we used to sleep in the same bed.
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But, of course, I snore. I'm a dude. Most dudes snore, you know.
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And so I snored. And because I snored, she threw me out of the bedroom,
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you know, because I snored.
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You know, on top of the bullying, on top of the beating up of the manhood and
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all that jazz, she threw me out of the bedroom.
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So, okay. I was sleeping in another bedroom. So I started, you know,
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I started doing what I was supposed to do or what I thought I was supposed to do.
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And I went to plan B. I started talking to other females and things of this
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nature because, hey, no, you bully me. You berate my manhood.
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You know, you threw me out of the bedroom, you know, because of me snoring.
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Are you serious? Is that the only reason why you're going to throw me out of the bedroom?
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But anyway, I started talking to this one female.
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This chick was in Mississippi, you know, never met, never talked on the phone, none of that.
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But she caught wind that I was talking to another female and she messaged this lady.
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This lady, when I tell you, she lied through her teeth.
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I'm like, come on. What, what level of crazy are you on? Like for real.
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And so the lady told her, yeah, I've been dying there. We don't slept together.
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We don't did this. We don't did that.
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I'm like, you, you presented it to me. Like I'm cheating on you physically with
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this lady. Now, where have I been?
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Where have I gone? I've been in this house every day. I go to work.
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I come home. You pick me up from work.
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Oh, yeah. You actually, well, she used to pick me up from work.
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She stopped doing that. And so I was on my own.
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And so I tell you, this lady went to the level of crazy.
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Though we, she didn't have a cell phone. She didn't have a cell phone.
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You know, mind you, keep in mind, this lady was bullying.
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This lady had purated my manhood. I mean, it's just nasty stuff.
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And, of course, we stopped having sex and stuff like that.
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And, you know, all that comes with the territory when you start to bully somebody
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because you're not going to bully somebody and then screw them.
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You're not going to do that, right?
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So, but still, though, me being the simple that I was at the time, she needed a cell phone.
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I wanted a cell phone. And so we went to AT&T and we got, I got,
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I think we went to AT&T while we was in good graces. This is before everything went nuts.
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I got her a cell phone. I got their cell phone. I mean, we were rocking,
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you know what I'm saying? And so when we went to Carolin's,
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I lost my cell phone on a ride. It was in my pocket, and the one of those rides went upside down.
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And I don't know what ride I was riding on, but my cell phone didn't make it.
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And so back to AT&T, got another cell phone.
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She got her cell phone. And so the worst thing is, God, she actually introduced
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another man into our relationship.
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Because of the first check incident and me being short on my first check,
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she was like, oh, well, if you can't pay the bills, I'll get somebody else to do it.
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And so she had another dude pay whatever bill that we had to pay. It was the light bill.
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And, you know, she had this other dude pay for the bill. You know,
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I was like, well, dang, you know, if you're going to introduce another party
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into the relationship, you could have told me.
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You know what I'm saying? You don't have to go by my back and you don't have
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to do that. I get it. I mean, I came up short. I get it. But you got to do that.
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Anyways, when I tell you, she was a little too crazy.
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I'm like, I know I've done a lot of stuff. but I don't think I deserved what I got from her.
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And I'm thinking to myself, you mean you tell me I left Illinois for this?
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I could have stayed in Illinois. You know what I'm saying?
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So we got to the point where we broke up and it was a nasty breakup.
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We're not talking about get out and everything.
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It was just hunky-dory. It wasn't like that. when I tell you we broke up, it was nasty.
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It was you do stuff, get out. Matter of fact, let me help you.
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And she threw all of my stuff out on the.
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Patio and she was like, get your stuff, go. You gotta go. And I'm like, okay.
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Alright. Just keep in mind, the cell phone you're talking itch to me on,
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5B2, or just someone that you're using is in my name.
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So I was like, okay, you're going to put me out? That's how you feel? All right, cool.
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So me thinking I'm the king of patty,
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go to AT&T. I go to AT&T and disconnect their phone.
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Automatically, like, you're not going to keep a phone in my name.
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You don't put me out. Are you serious right now? No, you're going to go ahead
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and you're going to get it up.
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And so I went to AT&T and I come from home.
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I ended up moving into a hotel that had those weekly rates that you can live in.
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I think it was called in-town suites at the time.
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I'm not sure if it's there anymore, but I moved into a place called the in-town
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suites and they had a little living room, you know, bedrooms all combined.
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You know, you got your one bed, you know, kitchen.
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And I'm not sure how she found out where I lived, but she knew exactly what,
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she knew exactly what room I lived in.
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So she, this one particular day, I'm sitting there, I'm like laying in my bed,
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just chilling, maxing on Saturday. I'm out of my business.
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And I get a knock, I get a banging, not even a knock, it was a banging at the
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door, and I answer the door, and it's her, and she was like,
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what the, you cut off my phone, da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.
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And the next thing I know, her phone is back on. I'm like, I'm not sure how that happened.
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Like, what did you do that? Like, is that magic?
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You some kind of, you part of the Harry Potter guild or something, how'd you do that?
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And what I found out was I didn't have a password, I ended up having to call
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AT&T and having a password on the phone or on the account where she couldn't react to make the phone.
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And so she came that day, made it a fight.
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We talked about fist fight. We talked about fist to cuffs, shoot them up movies. That's what it was.
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And she was ready to fight. And I'm like, I'm going to fight you.
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You don't put me out. You know what I'm saying?
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So I went through that. And I'm staying, I'm living in this hotel,
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taking public transportation and just trying to pick up light.
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And I just could not, I could not, no matter what I thought,
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no matter what I tried, it just, it just didn't, it just didn't work like it.
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How did I get so down in the dumps where I leave one failed relationship,
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excuse me, I leave one failed relationship right into another crazy one that
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was worse than when I left?
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It was sweet at first, man. I'm telling you, it was sweet.
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But I found out very quickly, people are not who they say they are.
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And that's a lesson that I had to learn.
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So, of course, you know, there's always a cautionary tale in every episode that I do.
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And in this episode, the cautionary tale is this.
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You know, one, make sure that you're ready to handle the level of crazy, right?
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Number two, kiss the red flags. When people start changing the rules in the
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middle of the game, recognize that.
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You know, don't keep doing the same thing. Sometimes you have to adjust.
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People throw curveballs at you. It's just like baseball players.
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They go out here, they're swinging that fastball, curveball, sliders, changeup.
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Things happen. People change, and it changes every minute.
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And you have to be ready to adjust your swing, as it were, because people just, and I was not ready.
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I was not physically ready or emotionally ready to get into anything with this
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woman. but did it because I wanted to be away from what I was coming out of.
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So it's a lesson that we all have to learn. Like, can we, you know,
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we have to adjust to people.
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Another cautionary tale is, you know,
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It goes back to number two. I mean, you have to recognize when you are ready.
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If you are not ready, and that's the biggest thing, you know,
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people jump from one to the other thinking that it's going to be okay.
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And we think we're going to take our drama, our drama, and our trauma,
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and to, you know, from one to the other, it's not going to work.
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It's going to always, because those things, trauma, trauma with a T,
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trauma with a D will make you reevaluate your life.
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And if you're not ready for it, leave it alone.
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You know, in today's society, people talk about, you know, if you're broke, don't date, don't do it.
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And that's kind of a true thing. If you are emotionally broke,
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don't, because it causes more harm than good.
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And trust me when I tell you, if you think that you're going to walk around
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here emotionally broke and try to date somebody who's not emotionally broke,
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you're going to be messed up, right?
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So make sure that you do not, do not mess with people.
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Make sure you get your stuff in order. Just like my friend Courtney always says
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to me, she texted me the other day and she was like, get your shit together.
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You know what I'm saying? That's what I'm trying to do.
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And so we got to make sure that we have our stuff together because emotional.
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Trauma hurts. It hurts. And it goes way beyond the physical.
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You know, some scars, some scars run deep.
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There are scars that I'm still dealing with to this day, June 30, 2025.
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I still deal with stuff that I try to take from one relationship to the other,
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to the other, to the other.
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And the scars just keep getting deeper and deeper. And sometimes you just got
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to let those scars, you got to stop.
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And you got to heal those scars from the inside out. You know,
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it doesn't always come. doesn't come easy.
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Sometimes you got to put in work. Sometimes you got to look at the mirror.
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Sometimes you got to be like, okay, I caused this.
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Sometimes you got to take accountability for the actions.
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You got to take accountability for what we do.
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And sometimes that's the hardest part because we don't want to.
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We don't want to take accountability because it's not, because taking accountability
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isn't the easiest thing to do, right?
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One thing that I learned with this
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lady, and like I said, I'm not going to give her a name, but this lady,
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you know I think I heard somewhere or read somewhere that she is now married
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and I'm like bless you brother because I'm not sure you know I'm not sure.
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What level he on but God bless you,
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that I was not ready I don't blame her for nothing you know I should you know
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but a lot of the hurt that I endured in that was again self inflicted because I took the drama with a D,
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from strawberry on to the next one and didn't heal from it.
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And whenever I went through the next layer, I went through brutality.
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What I went through with strawberry was emotional. I went through the other
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layer that it was physical. And it just compacted and it just made the scars deeper.
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Sometimes you got to, but at the end of the day, we have to stop and we have
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to heal those emotional scars from the inside.
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Like I said, man, and you got to look inward.
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What did I do to cause this? Did I do anything to cause this?
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And you have to face that.
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And we just don't want to. We just don't want to. So that's going to end episode
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eight. I want to thank everybody who's listening.
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Listen, if you have any questions, if you have any topic ideas,
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form there and shoot me an email and let me know if you want to be a guest.
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I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. I'm going to take this podcast bigger and better.
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I'm going to start having guests on and go from there.
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All right? So, until next time, I will see you guys on the flip. Love y'all.
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Thank you for listening. I hope I didn't fry your brain too bad.
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Come back through and give me another chance. You can listen on all platforms
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and visit us at knuckleheadchroniclespodcast.podbean.com.
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Until next time, in the words of the incomparable Jerry Springer,
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take care of yourself and each other.
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Music.
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Music.
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Welcome to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.
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This podcast was designed to let you know that you aren't the only one that
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took forever to get it together.
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So the rabbit hole that you have stumbled down will hopefully help you understand
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that just when you think it's over, it's only the beginning.
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Just because you was dealt a bad hand doesn't mean you have to keep it.
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Welcome to the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.
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What's going on, you guys? Welcome. I can't even talk.
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Welcome to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast. It is your boy, Terry.
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Man, we're going to get into episode eight here in just a second,
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but I want to catch up to folks that are brand new that have not listened to
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episode one through seven.
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You might want to go through those before you jump into episode eight because
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you'll be confused if you don't. Right.
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So episode seven, we was talking about, you know, I think I ended up,
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I ended the last episode.
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I left, I left Illinois back in, this is in 2014.
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So circa 2014, I went through a lot of stuff back in 2014, man,
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left, you know, I left the woman who I thought I'd spend the rest of my life
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with. And, you know, she's moved, she had moved on and, you know, I was left behind.
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And so I went into my next chapter, which is the career.
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I think, you know, this chapter, this chapter I'm going to talk about tonight
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is kind of one of the craziest chapters of my life I went through.
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And I went through a lot, you know, but the premise of this podcast episode
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tonight, tonight is to make sure that you guys are able to recognize crazy through the door.
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Now, one thing I will say about people, you know, crazy is that everybody that's
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walking the planet, male, female, girl, boy, it doesn't really matter.
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Everybody walks, I believe, walks with a level of crazy, right? Everybody does.
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So there's no shortage of crazy in the world, right?
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But it is the ability to recognize what level of crazy you're willing to take and put up with, right?
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So we're going to go right into episode eight. Now, episode eight,
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I told you guys at the end of episode seven, I got on the plane and I'm going back to North Carolina.
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Now, what happened before all of that happened was I found a old childhood crush
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that I had when I was very, very young, teen or 11, maybe.
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And I met this woman. I'm not going to name her name, but she probably doesn't care if I did or not.
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But she, because she was out there, right? So, you know, I was a kid.
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Let me give you a little bit of the backdrop. I was a kid and my dad used to
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preach at this church every, every fourth Sunday, every month he would go to
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the same church and he was back in my hometown.
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And every Sunday, this young lady and her grandmother and all them,
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they would come to the church.
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And so I developed this crush on her. It was just this amazing crush, but we lost contact.
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And so over the years that I was looking for and things of this nature,
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when I was going through the things with Strawberry, right there at the end,
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I found her on Facebook. And we became friends on Facebook.
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Everything was good. You know, everything was good. So we was talking,
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we would FaceTime, you know, and all that.
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But she was just on another level.
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So we got to the point where we made a decision to get together and make a run for it.
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Because, you know, I had my run with Strawberry, and that was over and done.
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And so I went with this, you know, what do I have to lose?
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Because what I was seeing was failing, and I didn't know what guy had in store. going forward.
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So I leave, you know, I leave Illinois. I leave, I leave the whole thing. And I get on this plane.
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She meets me at the airport. Now let me tell you something about this woman.
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When I get off the plane and I come through baggage, baggage claim to get my suitcase.
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She came, I mean, she came with the guns blazing. You understand?
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I mean, she, she came with the sundress, no, no, no undergarments,
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top, far bottom. She came with the thunder.
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That was really intriguing to me because at that point in my life,
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it's all about the physical.
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We go back to her place and I moved in with her.
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I go back to her place and there was no sign of it. It's like Martin,
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if you guys have ever watched, she was so crazy.
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At that point, she was so crazy when he was saying, there was no sign of her
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being crazy the range, and that is what this was. There was no sign of her being crazy in the range.
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So we get back to the apartment, you know, we do what adults do.
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And after that, it just fell apart. Right. So I go back, you know,
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I'm back home, you know, I don't know what happened with her.
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I don't know what switch was flipped.
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I don't know. But she became this really controlling woman.
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And, you know, like, she would make me do things, because, you know,
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I'm, naturally, I'm a homebody.
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Anybody that knows me, anybody that knows me, no.
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I'm a homebody. I go out every now and then, but I'm not that,
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you know, that go-out type person.
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And so she used to make me go out and do things, go to church.
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I just, you know, I wasn't really into that, you know, because I was still So
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I was still mourning the loss of Strawberry.
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So I really couldn't even get into it. I couldn't even get into it.
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So she tried. I mean, and so for the most part, I complied, you know,
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because I just didn't want to hear a whole bunch of nonsense.
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So, of course, I had to go back and look for a job. I went back to a job that
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I had worked years prior.
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Where you get those jobs that their turnover is crazy and you can go back and
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get a job anytime you want. It was like that.
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And so I went back and I got this job at just a place I used to work.
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So I can't take a name at that place now.
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Connections, I think is what it was. It was a phone company where it was a third party for OnStar.
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And OnStar was early in their infancy. You know, you need to follow up and get
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directions and all that jazz.
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But I went back. Now, a lot of the stuff that I had when I was there previously
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was a child support order and things of this nature that I was going through.
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So when I went back, they had my social security number.
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So, of course, that hit automatic, right? That first check, I was like $400
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short and I'm like, what's going on there?
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And it was like because of a previous child support order. So it was like,
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oh my God, this is going to, you know.
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So I go back to work and I bring home that first paycheck. And it's $400 short.
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And we had to pay, we had to pay a light bill or whatever.
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Well, we ended up going to Carol Wins or something that day or that weekend,
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whatever, before I got paid. So the debt was short.
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So she flipped her lid like, you know, what's going on with you, da-da-da-da-da.
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And, you know, I was just like, man, I'm sorry. I didn't know they were going
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to do that, you know, whatever, whatever.
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But since that moment, she flipped the script all the way.
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Like, you know, if you can't be a man, da-da-da, and all that.
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But what I realized, too, was that she was really judgmental,
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right? She was really judgmental, man.
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Like I told you guys, we went to Carowinds.
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At this time, I was a little bit bigger, right?
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And so we tried to get on one of the rides, and they could not get the safety
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clasp or the safety harness on me because I was a little bit larger. So she picked at me.
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We talking about childhood bully type stuff.
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So after the car accident, after the first paycheck accident,
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It went to, I'm going to bully you now, you know, and she, and she became this bully. And she.
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We used to, you know, of course, but with us living together and being in a
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relationship, we used to sleep in the same bed.
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But, of course, I snore. I'm a dude. Most dudes snore, you know.
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And so I snored. And because I snored, she threw me out of the bedroom,
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you know, because I snored.
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You know, on top of the bullying, on top of the beating up of the manhood and
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all that jazz, she threw me out of the bedroom.
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So, okay. I was sleeping in another bedroom. So I started, you know,
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I started doing what I was supposed to do or what I thought I was supposed to do.
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And I went to plan B. I started talking to other females and things of this
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nature because, hey, no, you bully me. You berate my manhood.
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You know, you threw me out of the bedroom, you know, because of me snoring.
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Are you serious? Is that the only reason why you're going to throw me out of the bedroom?
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But anyway, I started talking to this one female.
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This chick was in Mississippi, you know, never met, never talked on the phone, none of that.
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But she caught wind that I was talking to another female and she messaged this lady.
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This lady, when I tell you, she lied through her teeth.
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I'm like, come on. What, what level of crazy are you on? Like for real.
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And so the lady told her, yeah, I've been dying there. We don't slept together.
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We don't did this. We don't did that.
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I'm like, you, you presented it to me. Like I'm cheating on you physically with
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this lady. Now, where have I been?
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Where have I gone? I've been in this house every day. I go to work.
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I come home. You pick me up from work.
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Oh, yeah. You actually, well, she used to pick me up from work.
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She stopped doing that. And so I was on my own.
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And so I tell you, this lady went to the level of crazy.
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Though we, she didn't have a cell phone. She didn't have a cell phone.
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You know, mind you, keep in mind, this lady was bullying.
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This lady had purated my manhood. I mean, it's just nasty stuff.
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And, of course, we stopped having sex and stuff like that.
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And, you know, all that comes with the territory when you start to bully somebody
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because you're not going to bully somebody and then screw them.
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You're not going to do that, right?
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So, but still, though, me being the simple that I was at the time, she needed a cell phone.
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I wanted a cell phone. And so we went to AT&T and we got, I got,
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I think we went to AT&T while we was in good graces. This is before everything went nuts.
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I got her a cell phone. I got their cell phone. I mean, we were rocking,
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you know what I'm saying? And so when we went to Carolin's,
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I lost my cell phone on a ride. It was in my pocket, and the one of those rides went upside down.
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And I don't know what ride I was riding on, but my cell phone didn't make it.
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And so back to AT&T, got another cell phone.
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She got her cell phone. And so the worst thing is, God, she actually introduced
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another man into our relationship.
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Because of the first check incident and me being short on my first check,
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she was like, oh, well, if you can't pay the bills, I'll get somebody else to do it.
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And so she had another dude pay whatever bill that we had to pay. It was the light bill.
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And, you know, she had this other dude pay for the bill. You know,
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I was like, well, dang, you know, if you're going to introduce another party
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into the relationship, you could have told me.
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You know what I'm saying? You don't have to go by my back and you don't have
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to do that. I get it. I mean, I came up short. I get it. But you got to do that.
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Anyways, when I tell you, she was a little too crazy.
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I'm like, I know I've done a lot of stuff. but I don't think I deserved what I got from her.
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And I'm thinking to myself, you mean you tell me I left Illinois for this?
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I could have stayed in Illinois. You know what I'm saying?
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So we got to the point where we broke up and it was a nasty breakup.
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We're not talking about get out and everything.
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It was just hunky-dory. It wasn't like that. when I tell you we broke up, it was nasty.
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It was you do stuff, get out. Matter of fact, let me help you.
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And she threw all of my stuff out on the.
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Patio and she was like, get your stuff, go. You gotta go. And I'm like, okay.
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Alright. Just keep in mind, the cell phone you're talking itch to me on,
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5B2, or just someone that you're using is in my name.
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So I was like, okay, you're going to put me out? That's how you feel? All right, cool.
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So me thinking I'm the king of patty,
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go to AT&T. I go to AT&T and disconnect their phone.
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Automatically, like, you're not going to keep a phone in my name.
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You don't put me out. Are you serious right now? No, you're going to go ahead
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and you're going to get it up.
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And so I went to AT&T and I come from home.
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I ended up moving into a hotel that had those weekly rates that you can live in.
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I think it was called in-town suites at the time.
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I'm not sure if it's there anymore, but I moved into a place called the in-town
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suites and they had a little living room, you know, bedrooms all combined.
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You know, you got your one bed, you know, kitchen.
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And I'm not sure how she found out where I lived, but she knew exactly what,
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she knew exactly what room I lived in.
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So she, this one particular day, I'm sitting there, I'm like laying in my bed,
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just chilling, maxing on Saturday. I'm out of my business.
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And I get a knock, I get a banging, not even a knock, it was a banging at the
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door, and I answer the door, and it's her, and she was like,
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what the, you cut off my phone, da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.
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And the next thing I know, her phone is back on. I'm like, I'm not sure how that happened.
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Like, what did you do that? Like, is that magic?
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You some kind of, you part of the Harry Potter guild or something, how'd you do that?
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And what I found out was I didn't have a password, I ended up having to call
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AT&T and having a password on the phone or on the account where she couldn't react to make the phone.
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And so she came that day, made it a fight.
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We talked about fist fight. We talked about fist to cuffs, shoot them up movies. That's what it was.
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And she was ready to fight. And I'm like, I'm going to fight you.
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You don't put me out. You know what I'm saying?
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So I went through that. And I'm staying, I'm living in this hotel,
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taking public transportation and just trying to pick up light.
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And I just could not, I could not, no matter what I thought,
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no matter what I tried, it just, it just didn't, it just didn't work like it.
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How did I get so down in the dumps where I leave one failed relationship,
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excuse me, I leave one failed relationship right into another crazy one that
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was worse than when I left?
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It was sweet at first, man. I'm telling you, it was sweet.
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But I found out very quickly, people are not who they say they are.
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And that's a lesson that I had to learn.
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So, of course, you know, there's always a cautionary tale in every episode that I do.
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And in this episode, the cautionary tale is this.
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You know, one, make sure that you're ready to handle the level of crazy, right?
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Number two, kiss the red flags. When people start changing the rules in the
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middle of the game, recognize that.
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You know, don't keep doing the same thing. Sometimes you have to adjust.
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People throw curveballs at you. It's just like baseball players.
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They go out here, they're swinging that fastball, curveball, sliders, changeup.
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Things happen. People change, and it changes every minute.
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And you have to be ready to adjust your swing, as it were, because people just, and I was not ready.
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I was not physically ready or emotionally ready to get into anything with this
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woman. but did it because I wanted to be away from what I was coming out of.
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So it's a lesson that we all have to learn. Like, can we, you know,
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we have to adjust to people.
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Another cautionary tale is, you know,
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It goes back to number two. I mean, you have to recognize when you are ready.
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If you are not ready, and that's the biggest thing, you know,
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people jump from one to the other thinking that it's going to be okay.
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And we think we're going to take our drama, our drama, and our trauma,
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and to, you know, from one to the other, it's not going to work.
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It's going to always, because those things, trauma, trauma with a T,
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trauma with a D will make you reevaluate your life.
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And if you're not ready for it, leave it alone.
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You know, in today's society, people talk about, you know, if you're broke, don't date, don't do it.
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And that's kind of a true thing. If you are emotionally broke,
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don't, because it causes more harm than good.
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And trust me when I tell you, if you think that you're going to walk around
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here emotionally broke and try to date somebody who's not emotionally broke,
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you're going to be messed up, right?
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So make sure that you do not, do not mess with people.
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Make sure you get your stuff in order. Just like my friend Courtney always says
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to me, she texted me the other day and she was like, get your shit together.
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You know what I'm saying? That's what I'm trying to do.
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And so we got to make sure that we have our stuff together because emotional.
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Trauma hurts. It hurts. And it goes way beyond the physical.
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You know, some scars, some scars run deep.
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There are scars that I'm still dealing with to this day, June 30, 2025.
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I still deal with stuff that I try to take from one relationship to the other,
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to the other, to the other.
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And the scars just keep getting deeper and deeper. And sometimes you just got
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to let those scars, you got to stop.
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And you got to heal those scars from the inside out. You know,
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it doesn't always come. doesn't come easy.
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Sometimes you got to put in work. Sometimes you got to look at the mirror.
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Sometimes you got to be like, okay, I caused this.
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Sometimes you got to take accountability for the actions.
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You got to take accountability for what we do.
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And sometimes that's the hardest part because we don't want to.
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We don't want to take accountability because it's not, because taking accountability
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isn't the easiest thing to do, right?
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One thing that I learned with this
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lady, and like I said, I'm not going to give her a name, but this lady,
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you know I think I heard somewhere or read somewhere that she is now married
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and I'm like bless you brother because I'm not sure you know I'm not sure.
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What level he on but God bless you,
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that I was not ready I don't blame her for nothing you know I should you know
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but a lot of the hurt that I endured in that was again self inflicted because I took the drama with a D,
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from strawberry on to the next one and didn't heal from it.
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And whenever I went through the next layer, I went through brutality.
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What I went through with strawberry was emotional. I went through the other
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layer that it was physical. And it just compacted and it just made the scars deeper.
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Sometimes you got to, but at the end of the day, we have to stop and we have
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to heal those emotional scars from the inside.
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Like I said, man, and you got to look inward.
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What did I do to cause this? Did I do anything to cause this?
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And you have to face that.
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And we just don't want to. We just don't want to. So that's going to end episode
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eight. I want to thank everybody who's listening.
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Listen, if you have any questions, if you have any topic ideas,
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form there and shoot me an email and let me know if you want to be a guest.
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I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. I'm going to take this podcast bigger and better.
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I'm going to start having guests on and go from there.
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All right? So, until next time, I will see you guys on the flip. Love y'all.
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Thank you for listening. I hope I didn't fry your brain too bad.
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Come back through and give me another chance. You can listen on all platforms
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Until next time, in the words of the incomparable Jerry Springer,
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take care of yourself and each other.
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