Delete The Number!

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All right, you guys, welcome to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.

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It is your boy, Terry, man. This episode right here is going to be entitled, Here's to You.

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Here's to You. So I want you guys to hang tight with me. I know the title sounds

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kind of crazy, but hang tight with me, all right?

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Music.

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Welcome to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast. podcast.

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This podcast was designed to let you know that you aren't the only one that

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took forever to get it together.

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So the rabbit hole that you have stumbled down will hopefully help you understand

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that just when you think it's over, it's only the beginning.

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Just because you were dealt a bad hand doesn't mean you have to keep it.

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Welcome to the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.

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And welcome back to another episode of the Knucklehead Chronicles podcast.

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Again, it is your boy, Terry. I haven't done an episode since last week because

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of work schedule and other commitments and things of that nature.

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Excuse me. So I want to kick off, kickstart this week with a new episode.

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I want to say I want everyone that's listening to this to wish my my little

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man my my prince Terry Jr.

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He'll be seven years old on this coming Saturday I had him this weekend because

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his mother will have him next weekend so me and my roommate Nick we celebrated his birthday,

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bubbled a little cake put a little seven on it even though he won't blow the

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candle he didn't blow the candle out or anything,

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but we still celebrated his birthday I bought him a whole bunch of crap he didn't need.

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I bought him like three pairs of shoes. So it was a pretty good weekend I had with him.

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And, you know, I tell you, dropping off my son to his mother,

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every time I do it, it gets easier, but it gets harder at the same time.

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Last night I dropped him off with his mom, and he cried.

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I think that was the first time that he cries, you know, since we started the

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situation was this way. And this was the first time that he cried.

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During drop-off, it was hard to get him out of the car, give his mother his

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stuff, and get the car seat out.

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Mind you, we had been on the road all day. My little man and I was just riding around all day long.

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And he pointed back at the car, and he was like, you know, of course, he hadn't said it.

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He's nonverbal. He looked at it, but he's nonverbal speaking,

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but he's very verbal. with his non-verbal skills.

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He would point at the car and he'd look at me and he was like,

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you know, so that was hard.

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But this is for, you know, shout out to you little man. I love you.

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If you ever get to hear this down the road, daddy loves you.

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And, you know, I'm sorry that this situation is what it is, but I'm here for you.

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All right. So getting into the subject of the podcast here is, And here's to you.

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And the reason why this is, I titled it, Here's to You, is because,

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you know, at some point, at some point, we have to get to the place of absolution.

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And, you know, I've been following a lot of people on TikTok that gives positive quotes and all that.

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And there was a young man that said that, that put something on,

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and I'm going to try to find it while I'm talking to you guys, but.

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He has amazing amazing amazing quotes and sometimes i'll pull it i'll pull him

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up just to especially when i'm down about something i'm in my feelings about something he'll always,

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say something or i just i run across one of his texts there's tick tocks that

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make it make everything make sense. Listen.

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Let's see if we can pull one up. And every lesson changes a person.

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I got one. Every pain gives the lesson.

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And every lesson changes a person.

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When did I become so? You guys may not be able to hear that.

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I can't believe it in my eyes.

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You may not be able to hear that. Anyway, this guy is absolutely amazing.

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And one of the TikToks that he put together that I ran up on,

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and it said, sometimes you have to delete the number.

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And when I read, when I listened to that TikTok, I was like, delete the number.

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Sometimes we have to delete the number because we still hold on to people.

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And we are holding on to people. The holding on is what starts your growth.

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And I was guilty of that even though legally I can't delete the number because

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we have a child together but.

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I have to delete the number. And this is for everybody who's listening too.

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If you have someone in your life where their circumstances have ran out,

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the old clock has ticked, the clock is over, it's over, right?

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And we're wondering why. We're still in that place of wondering why it happened

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or wondering what you could have done animated, wondering what you could have done to make it better.

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There's no no. It's over, right?

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My message to you is to delete the number and let's move on.

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This is for me too. This is not for everyone. This is not for everybody.

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I'm not talking to everybody. I'm talking to me and everybody else.

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We have to get to a place to where we have to delete the number.

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I know. I know that it's hard to imagine deleting the number.

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For me, you guys, a decade with someone sacrificed, did everything under my power.

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Did everything. Raised two kids that weren't mine.

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Sacrificed everything. And And now I'm at a place where I have to delete the number.

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But the reason why this podcast episode is titled Here's to You because this is dedicated to my ex.

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If you, somebody you love, listens

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to this podcast, I'm going to say this right here to you. Thank you.

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I want to say thank you. And everybody who's listening, I want you to send this to your ex. Thank you.

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Thank you for destroying me.

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Because in destroying me, I found me.

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Excuse me. Let me repeat that. in your destroying me or the attempt to destroy me, I found me.

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You noticed that after you break up with somebody, after the situation dissipated,

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after everything is, the dust has settled, now that,

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you found yourself moving forward, being better than what you were.

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That's the whole point, right?

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So in you attempting attempting, or trying to destroy me, I found me,

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me personally, this is Terry, this is me, this is me talking,

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I went through, now, if anybody has been following this podcast for any length

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of time, I was in a dark place, if any of my co-workers are listening, they know,

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I went through a dark place to where I couldn't see nothing,

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only thing I felt was the hurt, The only thing I felt was the pain.

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The only thing I felt was that dark place.

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But I had to eventually, through therapy, through support, through all that,

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I had to finally realize that the person that was in that dark place no longer exists.

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Because I found me. I found what I'm not going to take.

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I found what makes me happy. I'm still getting there.

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I'm not at the final boss stage of life, right?

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But I am nowhere near where I was in that darn place.

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I am hurt, but no more.

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And we have to get to a place where we are okay, and we can say, no more.

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Here's to you. I will thank you. Like I said before, but I will never tell someone,

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that I ever regret meeting you.

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I won't ever say, boy, I wish I wouldn't have met her ever because that's a

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lot because at some point or another, at some point in this life,

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she was just what I needed.

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I was just what she needed in the time that it happened, right? We grew together.

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I want somebody to catch this. We grew together, even though we grew apart.

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That's hard to say, y'all. I'm just going to say that.

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That's hard to say. We grew together. We really did.

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That was an aspect of my life to where I was like, oh, and then we got together

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and then we grew together.

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There's certain aspects of

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this life that I just don't do because of me and her. We also grew apart.

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But then I say thank you because I would not be the man sitting behind this mic Like, if I hadn't,

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sometimes we have to tell people, thank you, and delete the number.

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It's hard. It's easier said than done. Trust me. I know.

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Me, it's a little bit different because I have kids. Or I kid them.

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But in all other aspects, I have to unplug anything outside of my son is irrelevant

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to me when it comes to her.

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It's hard though it's hard it's hard to be it's hard to be,

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excuse me it's hard to imagine her personal life you know without me in it I

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mean we've been together like I said a decade,

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I watched them kids grow up they're teenagers now my son will be seven on his birthday,

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but to grow on and And it's hard, man.

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It's tough out here to not wonder what's going on, to not lend a helping hand.

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And I try to do what I can, right? But at the same time, I can't cut off my air.

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It's just like when they say, when you're on an airplane, and then they've been

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in an accident, in the case of an accident, recover your own mask and then help

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somebody else. That's kind of what this is.

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I can't save her and kill me in the process. I can't do that.

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This is a decision that she made. I can't. But when it comes to my boy,

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though, I do what I can. I do everything that I can.

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But I had to delete the number and I had to move on and I had to say thank you

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I'm not mad I mean I used to be mad I think part of me is still mad but it's

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like okay but it's anger that I can deal with I can kind of,

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compartmentalize and move on but thank you I'm sure somebody listening to this

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that's attached to my ex still tell her I said thank you,

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I don't regret it I don't regret nothing I don't regret one minute but now I'm

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the man I am because of it.

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Some people just have to, I can't do this anymore.

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And in the moment that we are okay with letting go, life gets better.

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At the moment that we say, let me delete this number, let me stop worrying about

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he or him or her, what they're doing, who they're with.

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See, I used to do, I used to do all that. I used to be like,

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I don't see with somebody else, man, I don't care. now?

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Excuse me, now? I don't care. Do what you want. You know what I'm saying?

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Your blessing passed me by. Your blessing away. Some people do that.

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Some people throw away their blessings and be like, you did this.

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I was so, you know, you so hurt me so bad. You had 10 kids on me.

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Knowing that that didn't happen. But here's to you, ex.

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I appreciate you. I do not regret you. But I have to delete your number.

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And it's a wrap. Finally. That's what I should name this podcast. Finally, finally.

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It took me a minute. You almost had me.

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You almost had me.

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But I appreciate where I am in my life.

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I recognize that if I had not gone through the debacle, That is what that was.

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Would not be here if I had not gone through the debacle I would not have learned

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the lesson that I needed to learn so I cannot be mad at you about that the only

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thing that I can do is thank you for that thank you thank you thank you for

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trying to wreck my life and it didn't work,

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this is for everybody who's listening if you got an egg send them this thank

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you for thank you for were trying to wreck my life. Thank you for trying to destroy me.

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Because what you've done now, though, has created a monster.

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I remember laying across my bed after we first broke up and the transition between

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being married to not being married and sleeping in the same bed all along.

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During that transition, how hard it was, how dark it was, how I had intrusive

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thoughts, how I was ending my life behind it.

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And now I'm sitting back three months later, not completely healed,

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but Lord knows not where I was.

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And I'm going, really?

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I was going to do that? I was going to take my life behind someone who didn't give a damn about mine?

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Seriously? I was going to do that. And I understand, you know,

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everybody who's listening who's been through a heartache. It hurts now.

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But when you look at it 20, you know, much later, years later,

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and then you're like, come on, this is what it came to?

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Anyway, everyone who's listening, delete the number.

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Delete it. Go ahead. Go into your contact. Go ahead and delete it.

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We have to. Not because we want

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to. There's nothing about this breakup that we want to do. We have to.

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Because we can't move forward trying to hold on to the past.

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That's elementary. We all know that. Some of us do.

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I love you guys. Everybody who's listening. But we have to move on together.

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We have to delete the number together. Don't regret that, man.

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Don't regret that woman. Did she piss you off? Yes. Did she hurt you?

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Yes. Did he hurt you? Yes. Absolutely.

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But they made you who you are. Some of us, some of you guys,

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after the breakup, are now content creators.

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Some of you guys are now book writers, authors.

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Some of you guys are now motivational speakers after the breakup. up.

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But in order for you to get to those things after, you have to delete the number.

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You have to finally cut these folks loose and be like, you know what?

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I can't do this with you no more.

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You are not what I thought. I don't regret you. Thank you.

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But we have to move on. We have to. You guys, last time, delete the number.

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All right? You guys, thank you for listening. I really appreciate you coming through.

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And let's do another episode So you can find this podcast on knuckleheadchronicles.podbean.com.

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You guys come through, subscribe, follow. That way you will not miss an episode.

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Until the next time, you guys have a wonderful rest of your day,

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rest of your week. Be blessed.

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Delete the number if you have to. All right?

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Be on the lookout for the video panel coming through on Sundays live on YouTube.

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That'll be coming real soon. You guys have a wonderful rest of your day,

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and we'll see you next time.

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Music.